Smoking Popes Follow

I wasted so much more than time
And the one with whom I was as one
Has now undone what came to be known as our love
Which could not contain all that which she'd become

I was flat out wrong
And with both hands on the days gone by
I gripped my eyes wide open
Because I can't sleep at night

The world is much too cold
Without someone there to hold me or to hold
That's the way it goes

And I always thought that I would die
If you ever told me goodbye
But it wasn't until tonight
Tonight, I found out I was right

I wasted almost all my life
Being so afraid to fail I hardly tried
I found a place to hide
I dove into you
I swam around, around inside

But I'm not the boy that you destroyed
I'm stronger than he was
I had to be, to survive
I'm lucky to be alive

The me you left behind
Is still lying there
With his eyes froze open wide

And I always thought I would die
If you ever told me goodbye
But it wasn't until tonight
Tonight, I found out I was right